Deliberating

  All that we do in life, whatever we undertake – is our personal choice and a consequence of our own decisions. This is not “the others” who lead us. This is us, ourselves, who do, more or less consciously, want a particular situation. This is why we feel, so often, so bitterly disappointed, unsatisfied, or we always miss – as if by definition – just what we do not experience…

  What is, then, this “something”, that is ever closer to man’s heart, in fact? What is this “missing”, with its all gigantic power that man almost cannot stand…What gives roots to friendship, love and trust. Trust – big magic word, with all its personal submission , and then there is giving oneself to another human being, that will naturally follow this trust; followed simultaneously by touching of universe’s purest spaces, no fear and no doubts accompanying it.  Walking along the hills and valleys of life, forward and forward again, being ready to meet the Unknown, Unnamed.

  Thus, in view of all this – what is really important, what is “most important”? What is this “something” closer to man’s heart, that I have mentioned earlier: the outside glitzy spectacle, the face-value of things? Or, maybe it is rather that we can just walk together, being able to touch, delicately stroke true feelings; the feelings that are formless, not specified, with no even there being any possibility to name them; the feelings where words stop having any meaning. This is something quite new, the new qualities. And this is the point when man starts to feel. What can be perceived then, is a flow of energy, warmth, looking and watching with eyes that need no words; and finally there is trust. One then feels an essence of need to be just exactly in a place where he is. Nothing upon it.

   

  It is at that stage when the consecutive step is required, a step towards still more undertakings, towards the spheres that generate internal magnetic powers. Calmly and slowly, losing – on the way – all what is not too important, concentrating oneself upon the most minute details and activities, as if founding them out anew, man can start to notice them and understand their deep sense. That are these simple activities, that teach one to concentrate, to calm down; they teach accuracy and precision, respect for themselves, and – ex naturaby their very definition – also for ourselves.

  However, this is still nothing, in fact, when faced with vast space that life really is. This is just here, close to nature, where – submitting to the nature’s rhythm, hearing to its silence, what comes up to man are sounds so far never heard. Man starts to be able to see all what he has so far failed to see, the World being as if found anew. A question can be asked, then, if there is any sense to it, is all this worthy of itself? “This question is generated by our brain, our intellectual forces, the human Mind that can understand only the definite forms and “named things”. However, does this human brain love or - it just undergoes a feeling? Is the Mind the very core inside of man, that constitutes a center of man’s humanity? People say that it is the voice of Heart should be followed, however they do not know what they say in fact, as all aspects of Reality, everything is, classified, by man, on the basis of his Intellect’s criteria; whereas this Intellect is nothing more than an instrument, the role of which is to help, not to decide.

 

  I have frequently verbalized view that there exist words are magical words; the question-words, such as  “why”. When these questions are asked, and when this are not simple answers that are searched for, but rather the core of phenomena and events is being a subject of human deep penetration, and when – in fact – man does not look for answers to these questions at all – then what happens inside man is a slow transformation. This is also the moment when the voice of Heart starts to have something to say. Man starts to feel with his Heart, reaching also ability to understand facts via Heart, where there are no words at all. And this is then, when senses, such as hearing, vision, touch, smell – enter quite different frequencies. They attain more sensitivity, becoming still more responsive to stimuli. Man starts to “see” with all his Self, all his Human Essence. And then, all fears disappear, one after another, together with all worries. Man starts to “be” here and now, till eternity.

         

   All this is, however, is still again nothing in comparison to the energies, hidden in man, that finally reach potential to be released and be used, as – nomen omen – this is the very aim of their existence. The coherence of “being’, of the cosmos both outside and inside of us, constitutes a natural flow of these energies. When this consciousness  becomes a fact in human life, it turns out that there are no impossibilities. And this is not faith, the faith in “anything”; this is, instead, the Knowledge and Wisdom that has been being released from the most spacious depths of Human Being. This is how unity with the very “being” (existence) is born, as well as with the Essence of all things. All borders become blurred, the End and Beginning disappear. There is no Birth and no Death. The man just “is”. This is a state that is hard to describe with words – such description being in fact totally impossible. Then a stage comes when all this starts to be felt and man just “knows it”, reaching ability to know it. This is the True Real Life, not a mirage, illusion or a projection, but rather Transformation. There are many who have achieved this border – “non-border”, managing to cross it. We can find traces left behind them, in different forms, the traces not understandable for many, not possible to be grasped by their human mind, not to be grasped at all – as where they exist is quite outside of human mind.

   All power and magnitude of “being” is inherent not in words, or not even in thoughts, but rather in the certainty, emerging from the depth of human being. And it is just at this stage when there is peace and harmony with all living beings. All becomes import important, meaningful – each most minute moment of time, fragment of a second.

    When man experiences his willingness, coming from his very deep inside, to release all the incredible joy, that occurs unexpectedly, in mysterious way, when he wants to express it with his voice, or with support of a musical instrument, even if this instrument is just a hand-made rustic reed pipe that he has made himself – then the music that emerges out of it will always be perfect music, filled with harmony, a vibration that penetrates everything around. This will be music that is always new, and never a repeating of any music fragments that had been created before. But whenever Mind enters into all this process, then all this disappears.  It turns out (!) that man has no ability to perform any music. And this is long years and long time – of exercises and pure learning - that are required to acquire the knowledge, how to perform music at all. However it is also, sometimes, just a moment when we spontaneously pick an instrument and what comes out then, is the very sound that harmonizes with the depths and all deposits inside us.

      So much still remains under cover, it still waits to be grasped, to be touched – just like this Cosmos, this Universe, that still, in continuous way, expands.

     When there is no noise, no the outside noise, nor the noise inside man, one starts to hear Nature; the Nature that speaks, with the voice of wind, bird’s singing, rain drops, when even the drops of snow can be heard when touching earth…. Also this very Earth can be heard itself, when breathing, its smells and aromas becoming more and more clear cut, distinct… And all this is ever only the beginning, as this language of Nature is not an accidental mumbling. Nature speaks, talks to us. It has something to say to every human being individually, distinctly, separately. It need Time to be able to understand Nature’s talk. Its voice is vibrations, the overlapping of waves that intensify the amplitude, having their Primum Mobile (prime mover), as a consequence. This power is never directed against things, but it rather intensifies harmony.

      It is not a reason for sadness that this moment is as it is, with no perfectness. Man makes decisions all the time, at every moment. What these decisions are, depends on us, on each human being separately. Most often these decisions are an effect of our deliberations, made up on the basis of knowledge and experience. But it is also possible that what is the deepest participation of Man in Universe, his most deep yearning and nostalgy that touches Man’s origin – “where do I come from”, will suddenly pierce through all rational arguments. Then it goes up to the top of things, and all logic that has been so diligently cultivated, falls apart, crushed. This always is a moment of new Birth, the birth to sanctified life. 

                                                                           September  2009

                   

                                                        Author: Leszek Wieliczko

 

Translated by: Agnieszka Zell